Something to remember…
This is a raw, and open letter. I wrote it tonight to simply remember. I hope I can look back at this blog post in a few months while dealing with everything that might be happening in a different country.
May 3, 2011
You are Majestic, Mighty, Holy, and my loving Father all at the same time.
You care about my thoughts, dreams and pains.
You find beauty in my freckles, and smile at my quirks.
You believe in me. Fully.
You put trust and love in the people around me.
You chose me. You saved me and gave me a love I will never fully understand or even come near here on earth until I see you face to face.
You give me glimpses of understanding for pain.
These glimpses I don’t deserve, yet you show me the hope in the pain.
These glimpses are the imprints of the work You have creatively painted in my life.
You speak to me through such beauty.
Through a simple melody, to a strong gust of wind that plays with my hair.
You are my smile. You are my laugh. You are my unique beauty that people see.
You are my hands in which I serve.
You are that extra beat when my eyes see that person. An inexplainable love for a stranger.
A passion for a loved one.
When I don’t think about you, I become someone else. I grow cold and useless.
You are that much needed hug. You have never left me. You have never betrayed me.
It makes me sick to admit that I have left and betrayed you.
It makes me sad to think that you couldn’t even look at me when I chose sin over you.
Yet, you have always taken me back.
I walk back to you head down, and you always give me that big bear hug welcoming me back into your arms.
I can’t help but smile, and my sin is quickly forgotten.
You are preparing this journey for me.
One that I am so scared of, yet so excited and ready for.
This is what is so cool to me.
You are not only planning this for me, but you are buying my plane ticket and coming with me.
For a year, it will be you and I.
We will be building our relationship in a new country.
You will show me things I have never been through, and you will show me hope.
You will open my same eyes in a new community of people.
You will be my extra heart beat for a complete stranger.
You will be my lips as I speak a different language.
You will be my hands as I serve to the kids.
We are going to go through this new journey and chapter together, and I am so excited.
I am not doing this alone.
You are the love of my life and I couldn’t be more happy to be sharing every moment of excitement, fear, and readiness than with you, my Father, Savior, and Protector.
